Christmas Sunday

Ok, its that time of the year again, I think this pretty much is the one year mark on my blog...

So what happened today? Well, a lot of things...first lets start the day off from the morning....WELL, yes I was supose to do Sound for the 8am and 945am service and as usual I woke up late...to make matters worse it was raining and vehicles were moving very slowly on the road...talk about a double blow...furthermore the worship leader was waiting for my guitar...I guess its 3 strikes(and out) for me this time...talk about really waking up to a bad day...

However thanks to my trusty PA counterparts(Ziteng and Esther), by the time I got to church the sound system was all up and ready. Time for shocker number 2, Esther was doing a skit which leave Ziteng to do the powerpoint and me to do sound alone(Lijun is of course happily enjoy herself on holiday), and trust my doing sound alone with a total of 20 channels to control is not fun, in fact with the number of last munite changes, lack of battires(for cordless mics) and the need to add more channels during the service, this is the frist time I got scared of doing sound.
But frist let me address a few issues:
1. Elroi! When we ask you to turn the mic, you flick the switch that says "power" on it, its not the switch which says "mute".
2. If you guys want to hide when off stage, please don't hide beside a monitor speaker, espacially when your handsfree mic is still on.

Now to sit back a think for awhile, if I had Esther and Lijun around, things would not have been as chaotic as it sounds. Point here is; have I been taking certain people around me for granted? How did I think of this, it was not because I couldn't handle doing sound alone, but have I gotten too used to having people around me that I'm not used to putting in an extra inche of work? I used to call them my PA crew, I guess its only fair now that they are addressed as my PA counterparts(co-workers).

Next the activities on YM, the games were fun, and I don't care even if it was a backup game, as far as I'm concerned, Angie and Ai did a great job, my only regret is that I had to rush off half way for a meeting and was unable to finish the game.

Opening of the letter, for some reason christmas sunday happened to be the last sunday of the year, or maybe not for just some reason, a reason we are unable to understand. And being the last sunday of the year, we had to open up our letter we wrote to God on the first sunday of the year. I've completely forgot what I wrote in it or even how I wrote it, but one thing is for sure, if you had faith and truely mean what you write, God will make it happen. After reading what I wrote in the begining of the year, I finally understood why I was give the prayer of St. Paul before I left for Australia, why I kept on learning new things throughout the year, why was there so much grace given to me, why a significant change happened to me.

I guess sometimes its not about knowing there and then, its about walking my faith following and thinking and obeying things we do not understand why it happen and at the end, we will finally know why it turned out that way in the begining.

Some over due stuff.....

These are all over due stuff I happen to stumble upon when I was checking my notes I took in australia, need not be bible study stuff, but some are school stuff and mostly thought pen down during my free time...

It's kinds of funny now, I look back at all these things and I still can relate to them, and yet it seems that I was a totally different person when I was in Australia. More controled, living in a slower pace, admiering creation...a more down to earth person, a simpler person....

Back here in Singapore, I seem to more in the thick of things, getting involved here and there, more complicated, more things to do, more stuff to learn, more pressure...

Espacially after I know my results, its amazing, their not results I could have gotton on my own, but I guess God has given them to me for a reason, going for church camp, even thought I'm no longer part of the planing, but I still feel a sense of responsiblity over the younger ones, and feeling of having to ensure their safty and take care of them while the comm is busy...
So I guess its a cross between and active person and a reserved person...

Hmm, here's something interesting I wrote while sitting under a tree in school one day, yes, I was free enough to actually sit under trees and read books when I was in Australia.

I wished you were here,
but you're not here,
I wished you could see,
but you're not here to see,
I wished you could feel,
but you're not here to feel,
How I wished, how I wished,
That you could be here right now...

Now I understand why great ideas and discoveries are mostly found in the most quiet and lonely of places, as these places are also very beautiful...

Took me long enough....

Ok Ok I've actually been back to more than 2 weeks and took me till now to update my blog, yes I know its boring with no new post to read so here, this is sometrhing new...

Ok church camp just ended...and what did I learn, well, in terms of a "great" sudden influx of knowledge, well, I would say I've learnt notinhg...kinda sad arh...but in terms of small everyday things I guessed I did learn something at least...guess I'll have to be contented with what I got out of it, some times the smallest of things can be like a snowball that starts aa avaluanche...

So what are my thoughts on the camp that just ended? Well, the highlight for me was in fact the leading of singspration, strange isn't it, something which most people dread to do, turned out to be my highlight of this camp...(weird people got weird taste). I though of how I was doing it, reading the verses, putting in more verses than songs, making it more important for the meaning of the verses to get throught, and after thinking about how it was done, and watching the video evaluation that was done 4 months ago, I relised something very scary, my style of leading is becoming increasingly similar to somebody's style....my singspration is becoming a teaching session....HOW?!?!?!?....

Of course the other highlight would be the night walk on Sentosa, somehow I wished it was darker...hmmm maybe I just happen to like dark places...hmm I don't know, or maybe I enjoy the trill of being in the midst of danger, I don't know that either...

But one thing puzzles me, why do so many of us get scare once we put on the blind fold, why did so many people conclude that we would be walking throught the area blind folded? Have we gotten too used to the ability of sight that we forgotten how to use our other senses to make up for it? Have we lost faith in the people around us that they will always be protecting us? Why are we contented to sit there and cry and be scare when we can spend that time praying? Just after learning that God's hand is never too short to help have we forgotten that the minute we are faced with a difficult task? I think this just reminds us how easily it is we can get shaken or even fall away...

Walking the talk, walking by faith, walking with Jesus....looks like its not as easy as what everybody thinks...