Road trip on foot

The holidays are coming to an end, its going to be a very busy time for me once I get back to school. Especially after this holiday, I seem to have to much fun, OCF retreat at mount warning, yes we climbed a mountain to watch the sun rise.
Touring around with my mom and sis who came to visit......well just a lot happened.... Mt Coo Ta...food....ermmm more food..."Shan Tong Chicken..."

Hmmm....however I had to go through this holiday with a bit of trouble....I don't know why but I was frustrated over something I don't know...maybe it had something to do with direction, maybe it had something to do with purpose, maybe it had something to do with will...I just don't know....

Today was no different.. I woke up and yah...my mom and sis left last night to I woke up to a rather un-usual but normal feeling. Than I just remembered I need to buy some Christian stationery....and this was how today became the most interesting day of my holiday...a day I spent alone (maybe not alone considering God being there all the time) but I did have a choice... So lets check out this chapter....a 4 hour road trip on foot...


This is the back of the train station, one of the lesser travelled streets in ipswich. Road trip starts here.


This is how west ipswich looks like, rather boring I guess...


This is the ending corner of west ipswich, it dosen't really seem interesting here, so I decided to turn back and head for "Brassall"


Wow, a bus stop...yah the only bus stop in west ipswich...


"Burnett Street" this is towards the end of west ipswich, they were having some sand bike competition there yah it was happening behind me.


"Ipswich Grammer School" located just on the outskirts of Brassall...


Good old "Brassall" you can even find a crain there...


Ever wondered what that doggy sign was right between the railway at the back of woolworths...well...sorry I didn't take a good enough picture to be able to read it....


This is the poluted side of the river, they happen to be building some "high class apartments" beside it.


"Mount Crosby", you mean there is actually a mountain somewhere in ipswich???


This is the first sign you'll see right after you cross "that" bridge in ipswich...does it look familar Judy?


I can't cross this field due to the fence, but that chapel sure looks nice from here...


Hei a wedding.....Eunice!!! look their not only having weddings in the city...they are weddings here in ipswich as well.....ARH!!!!!!!!! The wedding band is following me...!!!! get away from me you married couples...I'm happy being single(for now)...arh!!!!!


Just a random street, but yah this makes the other side of "North Ipswich" or rather I was walking around "Browns Park"


"Fitzgibbon Street" I just thought the name sounded rather weird, but yah I stop by at petrol station nearby.


My first rest point...needed a drink.


"Browns Park" the other park that can be found in ipswich other than "Queens park".


This marks the end of the normal roads and well...going any further will be the road to "Toowoomba" lets just say if I had carried on walking, the next landmark would be that "big red elephant."


"Smith Street" or rather "Telegraph Street" the first street from the express way.


If any OCFer's remember this spot, this is the spot which Jon stopped , to wait for the last car (Judy) just after we exit the express way from Toowoomba. And yah, it is a pet shop. I came down the car to tell Eunice we were waiting for Judy, and soon after Louis came along and parked in front of us, not too long after that Judy finally appeared and we just droved off....(arh ha...beat that for memory)


This was my lunch...Hei I got to stop once in a while...I'm not superman you know...


Wow..a canon not something you get to see everyday, but yah we have some memorial thingy for soilders in ipswich...


"Flint Street" this is where the ipswich people will have to take our driving test.


This is the view from the top of the bridge.


The "David Trumpy Bridge" you know that long long thing to the other side of ipswich


Ever Wondered what the name of the river in ipswich was..well this is it...

I walk in one direction
I headed back in the opposite direction
I could see myself
An image, an im-perfect image, an im-perfect self
I couldn't see You, were You there?
Were You with me?
Was I with You?
But I know...You were there and You are here...
The reason I only saw 1, was because
It was too hard to walk...
I couldn't do it alone, and yet...
I only saw one
Because You carried me through
You were there all along....

Back into the fray

Some week ends I had.....

It was interesting though, this post is about the weekend and I'm only writing about at the end of the week strange....

First on the list saturday "Toowomba flower festivel", I can sense some guys going "wah lau Flowers leys....Daniel you ok or not?" Hei guys chill man, I'm cool with it...I wasen't really there for the flowers...I was there for the chicks...(*bish* ouch..kidding...) I went to it as it was a chance to get away from the busy uni life for a week and its also a sorta "road trip". So it was interesting, not much happening things going on, except for the fact Mel rolled me down a hill and we were stopping and playing at every children's playground we saw...it was fun though, lots of fun, the burgers, the rain the ice cream and the "atahs" food (yah man so what if the other table has fire, we've got picking duck). hahahahaha =P
The flowers were nice, although just looking at flowers is not really my cup of tea, but even though there were so many people running and screaming around, somehow I felt at peace when walking around alone among the flowers. Its finally out, I went because I needed a time of reflection.

Sunday, karaok at sunny bank..out of all the people there (15 I think), only 5 were really singing, the rest was just playing a fool (as usual) and 1 person was sleeping....that make 5 singers, 9 monkeys and 1 sleepy...hehe...sorry just a random thought...yah it was another fun night singing jumping, running away from the air-con, confusing people....the only thing I can think of is that I really need to learn more chinese songs...

Hmmm, back on working week now...this was a very busy week, both my major assignments has stuff to be done and seriously, can we all please pray for more programmers in this word, not just programmers, but good programmers. I'm coding C# till I look retarded, a designer that can code...armed with the technical skills of coding and the concepts of design....
Sometimes you so lost in work that you can actually wake up not know what you're suppose to do...the saddest would be to not even know when you're sleeping or actually are awake....but I've not reached that stage yet. So since when is overseas uni slack?....anyone who say overseas uni is slack deserves to be shot....

Ok back to work...and this is for Josh and Jem, please pray for me as well, I'll be treaching in OCF on friday, teaching as in stand in front and teach....the topic is IBS, so yah, this is my first time doing it and I really have no idea what to expect...so lets just see how it goes...

P.S. Jeremy its not my fault if the Newcastle keeper trips over himself and can't stop a half field lob.....
"YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE"

OCF UQ website Developer blog 1

From now on any blogs with this title will be the development blog for the OCF UQ website...

I've decided to have a paper trail on this website for just some reason,
1. Inventor Rights (copyrights belongs to and only to OCF UQ)
2. A public design documentation
3. Future referencse (so that OCFers in the future will know what thoughts and elements have went into this site and will know how to edit it)
4. Bench mark setting

Ok enough of that now what have my thoughs been in the OCF website so far, when I initially saw the site, I was saying "For the love of God...please take this site down..." it no secret that I felt it wasen't good (this is just me bare with it, seriously if you've been trained as a web designer for 5 years, you'll know what I mean).
However on further there is actually some meaning in the website, so what if the design is not as good as I though, people don't go to websites for "that experiancial feeling", they go to websites for information, and it does serve its purpose by giving just enough information although some are out dated.
So enters the in-famous battle of Designer V.S. Christian, just to let you guys know this happens everytime I do a christain based design or something (videos, games, website...etc) however the outcome will usually be something as beautiful the chrous of "Canon in D".

So lets see on initial looks, website has to be nice, it has to be easily updated, it should be user friendly (considering the number of IT idiots we have in OCF *looks for cover to hide*). I'll just cut to the chase, all in all after listing out the things I want to do for the website (a Flash GUI above a Shockwave architecture) it started to look more like an online multimedia presentation. HOLD IT !!! did the designer just win this battle? lets get back to basics "Who am I doing this for in the first place?" Things usually go wrong when the focus is lost, so who or what is the focus here?

Now let me openly say this, the website is NOT ....and BY NO MEANS! meant for OCF UQ, that website IS for God. I'm not just creating a website here, I'm creating something that should display the essens of God's work in OCF UQ. No doubt it shows information about OCF, but all the more it should show God as a focal point and base unit in OCF. The reaction toward the website should not be "wow OCF UQ has a great website." but "I can see God's presence in these people." The take home message should not be a nice website, but a realisation of God.

Of course this lead to a major change an deletion of graphics. Which has to done, it good that this is noticed now....
Now do any of you see what I mean by hearing "Canon in D" ?

End of milestone 1, Things to be done: Verses to be checked up on meaning and surpose. Graphics to be changed. Template will be kept, but overall theme will be updated

Ok it's been 1 month

Yap....1 full month of not posting.... now I fianlly got my butt of and found sometime to actually post something here....

First of all, I'm not bitching, but don't any of you really think the layout of my blog sucks??? After re-thinking through the site layout, and considering certain factor I failed to consider before, I think it really does suck..... wow...and to call myself a web designer.... damn academia....

Alright now for the juicy stuff...I've decided to turn gay.....BULLSHIT!!! I am....that was just kidding...I just mucking around a little...
Seriously if anybody think I'm going to post anything about my already complicated and patatic love live, forget about it....it sucks just thinking about it....

Ok the past month was very busy...as some of you know, I've managed to pick up my 20th programming language and I stuck the jackpot this time, having already known C++ and Java, there is only one other programming language I can progress to and thats C#. I'm using C# combined with a bit of scripting for my games programming now, its pretty tough, but yah I'm managing well, hopefully....

Next big highlight...OCF... I've been to a lot of OCF activities lately, don't know why, but yah more than the usual, I seem to be not allowing the fact that I live in Ipswich stop me from traveling to the city ever so often. Ok so what has OCF been doing lately...Mei (our ex-president) has just left for home (home here means Singapore, not heaven), and yah we've had a change of leadership....Go Eunice!!! Just like finally getting down to writing this blog, I've finally gotten down to designing the OCF UQ website, I won't say its bad, just very out dated...and just to give a hit, its not going to be a standard HTML website, think director/flash, with a back end programming that is easy to update. I've been teaching in OCF as well or rather as usual, (here is a side track, my gift is NOT teaching, yet I'm able to teach well enough...why?) I've benn offered the chance to do the website for OCF Australia as well...now that is really overwhelming, I'll need sometime to think about that, but yah knowning me I'll most proberly end up doing it anyway.

OCF has orgainsed several outings lately...Mei's farewell party...which I must highlight was fun, also because of the fact my team (Eunice and Ken) won in carnium (some aussie IQ game, hei we're smart ok!). We had the "River Fire" 30 minutes of non-stop fire works in sync with music which was down at the Brisbane river....step aside NDP, Aaron and Michelle's 6th annversary of being together...yes 6th, they've been together for 6 years...no their not married yet, but 6 years...thats a lot man. The longest relationship I've had was 6 months I think...I've also stepped up and volunteered myself to either lead song or be a musician for OCF, yes guys (for those of you back home), my guitar is finally coming to Australia. The only sad thing is...its not the S&P one, there is enough trouble bringing a wooden artical into Australia and I'm not risking $700 on that.

My studies have been going rather well as of late, my "High distingtion drought" is finally over, and I've got a gut feeling I might have gotten 3 out of 3 high distingtions for the first assignment of all 3 modules....when I take a step back and think, could thing be God way of saying..."Don't worry, just pressing on and serve..I'll take care of the rest"...

Shit loads of no fun

First week into Uni and guess, what..... I'VE GOT AN ASSIGNMENT DUE the FOLLOWING WEEK!!!!! how fun is that....

That sucks man, just when you're kranking up and tryingto get started, some one just comes along and give you a major jump start to begin with...#$^#%&$

And yes Daniel comes up with the most interesting of all projects every year, from filming to Director coding, to goodness knows what I'm going to be doing from now on.
This sem is not different, I'll be jumping into a major project. A fully playable 3D game, targeted for the PS3 and Nintendo Wii platform, yes sound fun and huge, but there gonna be a lot of coding involved here, and I can't imagine myself doing that.....(dosen't mean you're good at it means you like doing it) So for those of you who hear or knew of me doing research during the holiday, well, this is what I'm researching for a major 18month assignment.

Enough for work, it seems that everytime I got on a blog I'll have something to bitch about, which is of course interesting, but come to think of it, is there really so much to bitch about, I mean apart from the fact I'm a singaporean and Singaporean generally do bitch about quite a lot (not to mention our neighbours). Is there really that much stuff????

Not a good feeling

Its not a good feeling, why? its not a good feeling to be back here and leaving so many things done half way back home.
Can't believe it, there is just so much more I wanted to do and so little time..why so? I have no idea either, maybe somethings are just meant to be...I guess sometimes on all control things are just meant to unfold by itself...."Those who try to control all will end up loosing it, but those who loose it will eventually gain control".....(where did I get this from and what am I talking about? anybody know the context?)

Ok I've been keeping this in me now for week and I think its about time I let it out...

SOME people are real DIC-HEADS, I don't believe, have anyone been reading my MSN nicks the past few weeks? I'll re-type them out here....
1. Maturity is measured not by the way you behave, but by the decision you make in life.
2. If you can't take hard criticism don't bother being a leader

Firstly I'll like to stress the point that I'm proud of that fact that I dare to speak my mind in a sociaty where most people just lack the BALLS to say what they actually mean.
when someone say you SUCK, don't chase that person down and start accussing that person of being insensitivity don't go hard on that person....why? cause he/she might be right...more so here thw question would be do you have the gust to walk up to that person and say "Tell me why do I suck?" I mean obviously there is a reason why that comment was made.
SO why focus on the comment when that is not the main point? Won't it be more productive if you ask the person the reason and try to find out about it? Won't that put you one step closer to solving the problem?
Basically 2 thing can be in your mind, and the choice is obviously your's, you can choose to focus on the problem or look beyound the problem and find the solution.
Well if you feel the childish need to have the final say in the argument than I truely feel sorry for you.

Point here is I'm not trying to make myself an excuse to slam someone, point here is I'm trying to say people often focus on the wrong things. Look at failure, you can either try to cry about the fact that you failed or you can pick yourself up.

I onced ask someone this question..."Why do we fall?" Falling seems to be a very useless thing, and it dosen't help in most cases in fact you get hurt most of the time, but there is some use to it. Why do we fall?....it must happen for a reason...in fact ta simple reason....

"We fall in order to learn how to pick ourselves up."

For A Friend

If a brother weeps, I shall weep with him

For we shall love and share each other’s joy and pain

But if a brother grows closer to God, I shall have the Angels sing “Hallelujah, Glory, Glory to our Lord God almighty”

For He has chosen to revile Himself to us.

Sem end summary

This is the end of semester summary of my blog yes I know , I have not updated this blog for ages...but yes, now I'm updating it...

Q: Daniel Why haven't you blogged in such a long time?
A: Corrections, I did blog, just that I wasen't doing personal blogging, I was doing research blogging, so if any of you are interested in reading my research on Robotics and QTVR, please read the blogs on s4084487.blogspot.com and s4084487-studio5.blogspot.com

As most of you have heard this was a very busy semester for me, I had tones of research to do and stuff. Amazingly this was the sem of duels for me...why is it so...
Both the projects that I was doing were the only projects on the whole cohort that have 2 groups doing it, so yes, there was some competition in it.
However in the end, both my groups toasted the other groups...great work team.

Apart from that, I've been busy serving on OCF and Church. Doing what? well, what else can I do? Sound and leading BS.

Now comes the end of my holiday, I guess I've been too busy going out and playing games, to settle down and get stuff done. 1 month is a very short time, and sometimes it just flies past you without even noticing it.

"Holiday"

This is suppose to be my one week easter holiday break, but somehow or rather, I didn't enjoy myself at all...

DAMN DAMN DAMN I hate this feeling, I can't believe doing just one assignment took up 3 days of my holiday. It already hard enough trying to lead a group og first years, but to lead a group of frist years with one of my member not even sure of what he's doing... Hell!!! this just pisses me off big time, this person is the first person I've even been pissed off of with for school work since 7 years. Quote "I don't really care, after all its just Visual Thinking", that guy should feel lucky he is still alive, frankly speaking I feel sorry for his parents. Seriously if I ever get to tutor anyone, and I find a slacker when it comes to group projects, I shall show no mercy to that person.
I think by now all of you know how pissed I am with this guy, and worse off all the project is not over yet, I still have to work with this jackass for another 2 weeks.

Today was like the only fun day I can have and also the only day I can take a break from things.
Having to rush from place to place, I discovered the only place I can get some decient rest was actually on the train, this is getting really sad. Finally had sometime to go for a movie "Ice Age 2", its not bad a movie just that I felt it could be more random, like just adding random stuff into rather than having a predictable storyline.
I must say today was the only "ok" day I can get, shopping, eating, movies, hanging out.....

Tomorrow OCF's gonna be having dinner at Ipswich, I hope it turns out fine, but I might not be able o enjoy it fully though, somehow or rather I still have my projects and assignments on my mind.

Now I really can see/feel the pressure, its just mid-sem and already the madness is creeping in....how long before it takes control of me? how long before I no longer know what I'm doing? how long before I embrace this insanity? truely, no one can tell, no one will know, not even I....

A long week

This week has been one of the longest, but not worst weeks I've had since coming back....

OH MAN!!!!! went 3 nights straight sleeping at 3am and waking up at 8am...having to get assignments done and trying to get the best out of it. Laying on my bed, eyes closed and repeating the Lord's prayer over and over again....I was just so tired I couldn't think of what to pray to God, but I knew I had to thank Him for something that I just kept repeating the Lord's prayer over and over and praying any verse about thinksgiving that comes into my mind. Man...I really need some rest, thankfully I had the rest during the week and at least I have energy to be typing my blogs for now....

Uni life here is getting really crazy, assignment after assignment, presentation after presentation, if you guys back in Singapore think its easy, well, you haven't seem nothing yet, come here and give it a try I DARE YOU!!!

After every presentation its..."Ok so whats the next stage in the project development process?" and when you've finished 1 projects, you chekc the newsgroups you find that your lecturer has just uploaded another one for you to do. This is never ending how are we going to keep up wtih this.
But by the grace of God, I'll be able to find peace and rest during this busy time, not to fallback and loose my focus, but to be able to choose what is better. There will be assignments to do everyday, course materials to read, but to sit down even for even a minute of silence and listen to what God has to say to you....truely turely I consider this undeserving of us.

So other than having loads of assignments to do, what else did I do other than eat, sleep, shit, do assigments....I talked a lot to the people around me, house mates young and old....spent some time to just listen to what they have to say, talk to them and know what their facing right now, after all it isn't much different from what I was facing last year...sounds like I turning into a 24x7 student mentor....damn....

Yesterday was a blast....too much food to eat.... went out with Judy and Tiff to sunny bank(the "other" asian community) was great fun, talking to these 2 fabulous girls(fabulous in their own way...that is) yah it was great to see familiar faces again. Tiff being so much like me, just the female version of me, and Judy the first OCFer I know in Australia. We talk a lot ...well, crap/rubbish... during lunch, just having fun for the day, riding in Judy's car...dammit am I like the only guy here who can't drive...$%&^%$@$, buying pizza for OCF, we had pizza by the lake, something different for a change.

OCF was great, did some studies which I really enjoyed, not just teaching, but doing them as well, most verses came from psalms, so I had to constantly refer back to 1 and 2 samuel to find out psalmist's state of mind while writing those psalms, discovering new thing, adding to my write outs(Yes, for all those who do knot know, I've been writing out biblical topics with focus on certain verses, no soft copy, their all hand written). I'm really starting to enjoy this, researching on theology stuff and find out things...scary.....hehehehe ;P

OCF

Ok, my first time in OCF as a CGL....wow, this sounds rather ermm....daunting

It was an amazing feeling to be able to actually be given the chance to extend a minister beyound your own like comfort, home or rather I place which I was not trained in. I was nervious, yes its true someone who has been a CGL for almost a year, can till be nervious when leading studies. However take it from this point of view, if someone goes into a lesson, feeling fully confident, not nervious at all, feel that he/she has did a very detailed study on the topic of that day...than my question here is this "Feeling fully confident of self, how much will be allow God to guide us then?"

This is great man first day on the job and I got shaken already, not by the lesson, but by what happened before the lesson. Matt 6:33, well, I'm sorry Mei, but I don't take the stand point of basic needs such as food, water and clothes. My stand point would be the "all" here would refer to everything that God has intended for us, form basic needs to things that will help our ministry and of course whatever God see fit to give us.
HOWEVER, looking into this verse, I discovered something even more interesting, lets throw out both views and start from zero. I was looking through commentries after commentries and surprisingly, most of them, gladly left out the part of "and all these things shall be added unto you." I felt very puzzled about this, and I was able to find writtings that support both stand points, of basic needs and everything, than this point strucked me, sometimes its not that we are unable to find the answer we're just looking at the wrong place.
Lets look at the whole verse "Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." Noticed this "BUT seek ye first" and the line ended with a ";". What my take on this would be, its is NOT a matter about what the "all" here means, that is not the important thing in this verse, and it sure isn't the guiding principle of this verse. I would say, don't even bother about what will God give us, don't care about it, God will give what God sees fits to give, let Him decide the giving, what is our part here, "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness" don't bother about what God will give or what is it that He will give, just seek Him, just know Him, just focus on Him. That's it....as simple as that focus on Him.

Of course there are much more and yes I would like to continue on Hebrews 12:1-3 for the benefit of some of my friends back in Singapore....

Ok Hebrews 12:1-3 lets just skip the verse...and get to the question HOW??? How do actually do what that verse says?
"let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us" - Hmm 2 things were mentioned in here, "every weight" and "the sin". Have anyone ever wondered? If it is sin, why mention it twice, so its obvious the first section "every weight" would not refer to sin, now lets not focus on the sin part, that part is easy to know and look into, lets focus on "every weight" if this is not refering to sin, than what is it refering to?
Life? the daily things we do? material things? BUT can it also refer to our ministry? Our ministry in church? can it? Lets zero in on this fact, well we do our ministry for God so our focus is God, so thus it can't be, but think again....You know the 35 parables told by Jesus, You know the 35 miracles done by Jesus, You know the 7 "I AM"s that address Jesus or You can even know that there are 77 generations from Adam to Jesus......but do you know Jesus?
Looks like it is possible after all...how many times have we been so or rather overly concerned about doctrine, about truth, about that "experiancial feeling" that we seem to forget the basis of it, knowing so much about God, that we do not know God....

I guess running the race does not always mean doing....its about being. Doing can be so easy to measure, but what about being? Is it even possible to measure being? So it just leads back to seeking God all this time. Why is it does so many things lead back here....Why Why Why? Why is it so important to seek God, to know God, rather than just doing??? John 17:3 And this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.

Now do you know why doing is important, BUT even more so being...

Weekends Happenings

Ok, this was by far one of the most interesting weekends that has heppened....well.....

Firstly back to OCF....We actually had this introduction video....and Guess What...!?!?!?!?! I saw LiWei and Jing Jing in it, yes its a combine OCF video, wished OCF Brisbane was big enough to have a video of its own though....
So yah I am officially an OCF CGL, sometimes I guess, you're like feeling how muched God has taught you over these years that, well the only way to reply is to teach others. Seriously Nothing beats the feeling of seeing someone grow in their own Christian walk, helping them making a difference in their lives, and thats even a greater feeling when you see them rise up to one day teach others.....(making disciples....)
Gathering at OCF was really fun, and yah to Jasmine and Debbie, if you're reading this, to tell you girls the truth, I didn't confirm if there really was an OCF meeting that day, in fact I didn't even know what the program for that day would be and not to mentioned I forgot the usual meeting time. I was like praying damn hard that there was something on, well walking by faith I guess. That again I was worried thou, so yah I guess God saved my ass again...

That was friday, now saturday.
Saturday was one hack of a day, visit to Chinatown, South Bank, Goodwill Bridge, Brisbane Central. We travelled to so many places in just one day. Chinatown was great I found my cooking ingredients and yes Chillie paste. Had lunch there too, and for the first time in my life we saw a life protest, so we just joined in....hahahahaha, I am seriously hoping they have a student riot for VSU(maybe I can burn down a VSU sign or something...with naplam of course)

The Protest we saw in Chinatown

South Bank, now for those back in Singapore, well, south bank has a manmade beach, so we just go there and look at the beach and ..."WOW!?!?....ok..now what?" yah thats basically it. We sat there for some ice cream though, so you guys can see my housemates, and yah we're called "the gang".This is one of the dumbest signs I've ever seen, do you think blind people can see this sign?

Bryan

Serina

Jasmine

Shaun and Debbie

Sondre and Debbie(again..girls like to take photo lah)

Highlight of the day, this damn group of australians came driving by in their car and shouted racsit remarks at us...yes I was pissed and disappointed with such human behaviour, but I was more disappointed with my reply. What they say was "You guys are stupid, Go home, fucking chinks...blah blah blah..." these guys didn't even have the balls to stay and listen to my reply, so what did I say "Your mother didn't really loved you in the first place!"....way to go Mr smarty pants....Some of you may be asking but why am I disappointed, its sounds really witty and its not vulgal as well, well here is the answer.

Luke 6:33-35(KJV) And if ye do good to them which do good to you, what thank have ye? for sinners also do even the same. And if ye lend to them of whom ye hope to receive, what thank have ye? for sinners also lend to sinners, to receive as much again. But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil.

Why the hell did I even reply in the first place, what was I thinking?

That pretty much wraps up Saturday, now for sunday...
For the goodness knows how many timeth in my life....why do I keep on getting mistaken as a Japanese or Korean, I can speak English perfectly fine. This time it happened in church, I was mistaken for a Japanese....oh man....

That was one hack of a weekend....Now its back to school...lets see what other magic can I conjour with my assignments

I can't sleep

I can't believe it, I can't sleep, I seriously can't sleep....why?!?!?!

This is only the first day of school, and it as though I have assignments due next week(which I don't). I'm already thinking of design concepts, methods of doing my assignments, inprovement methods...etc I received my assignments sheets like less than 12 hours ago, and their due only like in 2 months and I'm worrying about them now...!!!!! WHAT THE FREAK is happening to me...!?!?!?!?!

If you're wondering why I'm so stressed up about my assignments, well, for those of you who have an idea of the videos I've done, well, just picture, this look at all those nice and amazing visual effects which you see from MingDao's and my videos, yah ok. Now imagine doing those effects, but not still images, moving videos. Think something like the effect from the "Initial D" cartoons. That's what is required.

This is just odd...hmmm not let me think, how did I manage to over come this last year? Was I like really that blur? I don't know....I find myself in this endless loop again of not knowing....however I do know that the answer to this not about knowing, but rather about the process of finding out, but sometimes, just as a human being, we so often tend to fall back into old habits.

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark,
At the end of the storm is a golden sky.
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown,
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone.
You'll never walk alone

Now that I'm back...

OK this is not an out-burst of doctrine that my past few posts, for those of you who knew who/what I was bursting at, good for you, for those who don't, well, I don't care either...

Ok I'm back in Brisbane, back in UQ, back in OCF, natural question is.....Now what???
When I was in Singapore I can't help but feel the pressure of the commendation I received last year, I felt so what pressured to keep it up as for the first time in my life I saw my Dad was happy with my results.(considering the fact I was a 'N' level student)
However, I've begin to notice now...what pressure...isn't it just dumb to actually think about what has already past? Thats that, and lets just leave it, right now I can start a again, and work, after all I already know the pace and the level which I have to work at, why not just carry on.
Its not about getting another award, its about doing you personal best in everything you do.
God gave us the best and it is only rightful if we give our best, thus the Father be glorified.

My thoughts about being back, well, new housemates, which I must say, I am surprised that this time round I not only have christians housemates, but they are methodist, and they are from ACJC(by stating this it does not mean that I changed my stand, I'm still not supportive of the AC/MG thing, its becuase their from SCGS, so its not so bad) Why is ACJC, cause I've been showing them my church photos, and they happen to know certain people...Crystal Soh, I am official living with people who know you. Tang ShangWei a.k.a the pingpong captain, yes they know you as well. We seem to be over flooded with Singaporeans this time round there are like a total of 5 of us out of 19, so yah 1/4 of us are Singaporeans.

The only thing left now would be to go for OCF and see what new stuff is there, lets see how this CGL can continue ministering...

Since this is the 1st sem, I'm attending all the orientation events for the 1st years(cheap skip right? 2nd year already still go collect free stuff). So I guess its rather fun here right now, I wonder how much more fun will there be once school offifcally starts.

What do we seek?

We can seek wealth, we can seek love, or we can just seek to be smart. However on the Christian stand we are suppose to seek God, but truly truly, do we seek God?

What is seeking God, Does it mean, “I want to be a better guitarist to that I can play better for God?”, “I want a better Amplifier to that my music sounds better for God?” or how about “I wish I could do bible study better for God?”. The question here is more rather not who we are serving, but “Why are we serving?”.
Truly truly why do we serve? How is it possible to serve without joy? Is serving simply a command?
I do not think so, serving more rather should be a response, a response to God, to His greatness; shouldn’t it be? If it is so yet why do some serve do some force themselves to serve? For if we are responding to God in the form of service than shouldn’t we be more than happy to serve Him, after all He is the Lord God almighty….
If we are serving God in response to His greatness, than why do we still want more? Shouldn’t our main focus be God and God only? Yet why do we seek so much to play better, why do we seek better equipment?
Wasn’t it written “Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”?
Seek ye first…seek ye FRIST… It has been stated very clearly what we should seek, and yet we seek to use other methods for God? Why is this so? Does it matter if I am a lousy guitarist? Does it matter if I play without an amplifier? Does it matter if I am a boring study leader? Does it really matter?
I tell you the truth, there will always be a better guitarist, there will always be a better amplifier, there will always be a more interesting study leader, but there will never ever be a better kingdom of God.
For it is written “Matthew 13:44-48 The kingdom of heaven is like unto a treasure hidden in the field; which a man found, and hid; and in his joy he goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth that field. Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls: Who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had, and bought it. Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a net, that was cast into the sea, and gathered of every kind: Which, when it was full, they drew to shore, and sat down, and gathered the good into vessels, but cast the bad away.”
Can this be compared to anything we seek in this world? I tell you no, for the kingdom of heaven is not of this world.
Yet if we are seeking something not of this world, how can we seek something of this world at the same time? How is it possible to serve 2 masters at the same time?

So now I ask truly what do we seek?

On to whom do we focus?

If we know this yet why so we not do it?

Sporting Activities...memories...

Church Soccer, this was one crazy event.... I can't believe, ok, conclusion,
"a bunch of soccer deprived teens are willing to bath in mud in order to play the game they haven't played for like 3 months."

That was madness, I must stick to this point that our church team is lacking of commited defenders, is there really that much glory in going up to score the goal? Is glori seeking that fun? Errmmm oops, I meant "glory seeking"(side track: Glori seeking is joyful). Playing as a right wing back my natural position, yes I was able to cover the right wing rather well, but than I saw a traffic rush from the middle, which moved me to the role of sweeper and thats were the fun starts....all in all, games states, 2 corners concided, 8 goal saving tackles, 0 fouls commited, 3 fouls won, 7 successful crosses, 2 assist.
I can't believe, 2 assist, have the midfielders over commited themselves in trying to score that even a sweeper(last man) have to send the long balls in for the stirkers? Final score my side lost 2-3.

That was sunday, now for today's post, having felt a bit better from flu I decided to do something I did ever so often when I was in Australia. Get out into the open and sit there read or draw something, pray and admire the things around you....I see cars....girls...pretty girls in JC uniform, more pretty girls...*bish*....Ok fine! I see students walking home from school...than something caught my eye...this boy, will not in uniform, carrying a sling bag, with a jacket hang over the top of the bag...than I started to think....

A boy sitting in a room reading a book, listening to hyms played from his laptop, having a slight flu, using a green packet of tissue paper, feeling hungry and munching away a bar of kitkat, feeling lonely and looking up once in a while at a jigsaw puzzle of Winnie the pooh and friends, looking around the room, he sees a frame filled with writings one of the lines wrote "not so much to seek to be loved, but to love", his digital watch happens to beep and he picks up he blue sling bag, grabs his jacket which was hang beside his beret, puts it over the top of the sling bag and leaves for class...

Strange isn't it? how the slightest things remind us of other things...

A new year. A new Dan?

Ok its new year again, well whats going on now? Have I have new thoughts in my mind?

I still don't know, well, I'm typing this after reading several other people's blogs, and I've noticed how the people around have grown during this time when I wasn't around, it almost seem amazing, and also to find out how many of my friends are getting married.
Oh man, I hope my mom isn't reading this, please don't burden me with another person to take care of in my life when I'm not ready....its a really sucky feeling, and trust me the ego boost is NOT worth it. Seriously. A more biblical way of saying it would be "How on earth is God going to entrust me, a relationship with another person when I can't even keep up this relationship with Him?" Made any sense? So come chinese new year please don't ask me that irritating question I get every year "Got girlfriend or not?" you'll just be replied with a COLD look...

Having come this far, I guess its time get down to things, be a bit more serious about things, play a little less, drop that loud egomanica for the "chlo" I am , sounds like I should let that part of me which I'm so afraid of to exist again, I just pray it doesn't cause me stumble again.

New year resolutions....am I making any...NO....
How about a new year prayer? I know this is from a book mark, but the prayer of St. Paul wasn't originally from me either. And after know God's reply when we pray and really mean it...well, here goes....

Dear God,
Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The Courage to change the things I can, and
the Wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven...
Amen..

Lets look back at last year as well, learning so much, praying for the special people in my life, stepping down as CGL for further studies, and I still can't forget that emotional day at the airport(yes ladies, the fact is out, I'm a guy that will cry). My first sem in Australia, my hunt for a church, hunt for a CG to go to, talking and learning from Tai Kok through MSN.
Of course not to forget, calling Lijun's handphone to wish Glorijoy happy birthday...yes yes I know Lijun you feel like kicking me for that. Giving Josh that surprise phone call when I heard how troubled he was, staying over at Tiffany's and playing mole as well...(next time don't want to play already, Shawn please take over)
Hmmm, maybe this time, I'll call Jane's hnadphone to wish Esther happy birthday amd give Jeremy a surprise phone call hehehehe.....
Coming back, seeing my family again, going to FMC again, knowing my results, winning a youth camp hat-trick, doing PA alone.

What more can I say, 2005 was a blast, lets see what God has install for me in 2006. More trials? More knowledge? I do not know, but what do I know?
I know that it is written "But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you." Therefore I need not fear....