I can't sleep

I can't believe it, I can't sleep, I seriously can't sleep....why?!?!?!

This is only the first day of school, and it as though I have assignments due next week(which I don't). I'm already thinking of design concepts, methods of doing my assignments, inprovement methods...etc I received my assignments sheets like less than 12 hours ago, and their due only like in 2 months and I'm worrying about them now...!!!!! WHAT THE FREAK is happening to me...!?!?!?!?!

If you're wondering why I'm so stressed up about my assignments, well, for those of you who have an idea of the videos I've done, well, just picture, this look at all those nice and amazing visual effects which you see from MingDao's and my videos, yah ok. Now imagine doing those effects, but not still images, moving videos. Think something like the effect from the "Initial D" cartoons. That's what is required.

This is just odd...hmmm not let me think, how did I manage to over come this last year? Was I like really that blur? I don't know....I find myself in this endless loop again of not knowing....however I do know that the answer to this not about knowing, but rather about the process of finding out, but sometimes, just as a human being, we so often tend to fall back into old habits.

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark,
At the end of the storm is a golden sky.
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown,
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone.
You'll never walk alone

Now that I'm back...

OK this is not an out-burst of doctrine that my past few posts, for those of you who knew who/what I was bursting at, good for you, for those who don't, well, I don't care either...

Ok I'm back in Brisbane, back in UQ, back in OCF, natural question is.....Now what???
When I was in Singapore I can't help but feel the pressure of the commendation I received last year, I felt so what pressured to keep it up as for the first time in my life I saw my Dad was happy with my results.(considering the fact I was a 'N' level student)
However, I've begin to notice now...what pressure...isn't it just dumb to actually think about what has already past? Thats that, and lets just leave it, right now I can start a again, and work, after all I already know the pace and the level which I have to work at, why not just carry on.
Its not about getting another award, its about doing you personal best in everything you do.
God gave us the best and it is only rightful if we give our best, thus the Father be glorified.

My thoughts about being back, well, new housemates, which I must say, I am surprised that this time round I not only have christians housemates, but they are methodist, and they are from ACJC(by stating this it does not mean that I changed my stand, I'm still not supportive of the AC/MG thing, its becuase their from SCGS, so its not so bad) Why is ACJC, cause I've been showing them my church photos, and they happen to know certain people...Crystal Soh, I am official living with people who know you. Tang ShangWei a.k.a the pingpong captain, yes they know you as well. We seem to be over flooded with Singaporeans this time round there are like a total of 5 of us out of 19, so yah 1/4 of us are Singaporeans.

The only thing left now would be to go for OCF and see what new stuff is there, lets see how this CGL can continue ministering...

Since this is the 1st sem, I'm attending all the orientation events for the 1st years(cheap skip right? 2nd year already still go collect free stuff). So I guess its rather fun here right now, I wonder how much more fun will there be once school offifcally starts.

What do we seek?

We can seek wealth, we can seek love, or we can just seek to be smart. However on the Christian stand we are suppose to seek God, but truly truly, do we seek God?

What is seeking God, Does it mean, “I want to be a better guitarist to that I can play better for God?”, “I want a better Amplifier to that my music sounds better for God?” or how about “I wish I could do bible study better for God?”. The question here is more rather not who we are serving, but “Why are we serving?”.
Truly truly why do we serve? How is it possible to serve without joy? Is serving simply a command?
I do not think so, serving more rather should be a response, a response to God, to His greatness; shouldn’t it be? If it is so yet why do some serve do some force themselves to serve? For if we are responding to God in the form of service than shouldn’t we be more than happy to serve Him, after all He is the Lord God almighty….
If we are serving God in response to His greatness, than why do we still want more? Shouldn’t our main focus be God and God only? Yet why do we seek so much to play better, why do we seek better equipment?
Wasn’t it written “Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”?
Seek ye first…seek ye FRIST… It has been stated very clearly what we should seek, and yet we seek to use other methods for God? Why is this so? Does it matter if I am a lousy guitarist? Does it matter if I play without an amplifier? Does it matter if I am a boring study leader? Does it really matter?
I tell you the truth, there will always be a better guitarist, there will always be a better amplifier, there will always be a more interesting study leader, but there will never ever be a better kingdom of God.
For it is written “Matthew 13:44-48 The kingdom of heaven is like unto a treasure hidden in the field; which a man found, and hid; and in his joy he goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth that field. Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls: Who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had, and bought it. Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a net, that was cast into the sea, and gathered of every kind: Which, when it was full, they drew to shore, and sat down, and gathered the good into vessels, but cast the bad away.”
Can this be compared to anything we seek in this world? I tell you no, for the kingdom of heaven is not of this world.
Yet if we are seeking something not of this world, how can we seek something of this world at the same time? How is it possible to serve 2 masters at the same time?

So now I ask truly what do we seek?

On to whom do we focus?

If we know this yet why so we not do it?