Yet another day....

Another cold day in a rather warm country...however was rather fun thought...
Spent most of my time doing programming work, something that I like, figuring out everyline of code used to create this blog. I wished I knew what was look at sometimes; sometimes the answer is just right in front of me, sometimes its just not what I think.
Looks like its time I really stil down and my changing this blog a project and really spent some time on it.

What else was so enjoyable about today? Well, I ran 6km again, something I haven't done in a very long time, rather amazed to know that I can still keep up running that far, or was I more concrened about running the distance just to "show off" my newly coloured hair?
Its been 4 months sinced I really got down to some execreise, glad I still have some of my old fitness let.

Can't help thinking about how to help those earthquake victims, everytime you turn on the news, you see waves coming in, people crying, people look for their loved ones...maybe we just can't help but care for them...ironic isn't it, just the other day I was just hoping someone was dead...

we hate, yet we love

Why do we just hate certain people or things?
Is it really impossible to find a why to forget about those times?

And yet there are some who we can never find the heart to hate, for we love them too much,
is there an answer? does love really help us sub-press hate?

Live can really be very fustrating, I don't have a choice, I had to go for this function, and now I ended up regretting going for it, can there be more of a choice in life? Sometimes I really wonder what are we living for? Ourselves? The people around us? God? What do we REALLY live for inside us?

How can anybody be so negative? If the world is really that bad, when will it end? Not everybody won't care about you or me, there will be someone that cares and notice what is happening, but somehow fairness just isn't in some people's diction...

There are too many question to be answered, when will all these question be answered, is there an answer in the first place? Or do we have to be in eternal rest before we can get the answers?

No one likes what is going on to their lives not, neither do I, can't there be more love in this world? What have I even done to derserve this? Why is it contraintly tormenting, can it be stopped, can it JUST DIE.!!! I WISHED IT WAS REALLY DEAD!!!

A new year, A new begining

What was the start of all this,
When did the cog offate begin to turn?
Perpahs it is impossible to grasp that answer now,
From deep within the flow of time...

But for a certainty, back then,
we loved so many, yet hated so much,
we hurt others and where hurt ourselves...

Yet even then, we ran like wind
whilst our laughter echoed, under the cerulean skys...

Afriad or just not sure

Why is it when people inspire to do great things, and when they are given a chance to do it, they want to turn it down considering the risk involved...

Humans seem to be like that...I just want to know why? Everyone inspires to "make it" big, but almost all of the same people turn down these oppotunity and "slap themselves".
Is it the fear of taking that one big step or is it just a matter of being ready, if the latter than when is ready?
Are we all really that afriad of changes? even if it is for the better? or is it just the nature of humans to want to do little and gain lots?

today has definately been a very unproductive day in my story...

Back to a civilian

2 years have past simce, I am now back to being a civilian, no more a soilder, no more in the army(air force). The thought of being civilian again, why is it when things start to end, you hope they never did, and when new things start to happen, you wished they never started? Are humans really that resistant to changes?

Again this chapter of the story has ended, how will the next chapter start, when will it start? How will it end? This may be a story in another land...

Life goes on from here, no asking why for me now, I know my purpose, I know what I have to do for now, I just hope I live and do it correctly...

Just came back

Wow, just had a great time from church camp, didn't know it would be that much work, when you are one of the organisers.
But organisers must have fun too.
Lots of thoughts throught the mind, of why things turned out the way they did, why I chose those choices, why I made those decisions, what made me think that way...
Did I manage to do what I set off to do in the camp? Or did it not happen? Life seems to be full of questions sometime, some can be answered, some can't, and for some the answer is right in front of us but we can't see it.
So what is my answer this time round? I think only time will tell...