A long week

This week has been one of the longest, but not worst weeks I've had since coming back....

OH MAN!!!!! went 3 nights straight sleeping at 3am and waking up at 8am...having to get assignments done and trying to get the best out of it. Laying on my bed, eyes closed and repeating the Lord's prayer over and over again....I was just so tired I couldn't think of what to pray to God, but I knew I had to thank Him for something that I just kept repeating the Lord's prayer over and over and praying any verse about thinksgiving that comes into my mind. Man...I really need some rest, thankfully I had the rest during the week and at least I have energy to be typing my blogs for now....

Uni life here is getting really crazy, assignment after assignment, presentation after presentation, if you guys back in Singapore think its easy, well, you haven't seem nothing yet, come here and give it a try I DARE YOU!!!

After every presentation its..."Ok so whats the next stage in the project development process?" and when you've finished 1 projects, you chekc the newsgroups you find that your lecturer has just uploaded another one for you to do. This is never ending how are we going to keep up wtih this.
But by the grace of God, I'll be able to find peace and rest during this busy time, not to fallback and loose my focus, but to be able to choose what is better. There will be assignments to do everyday, course materials to read, but to sit down even for even a minute of silence and listen to what God has to say to you....truely turely I consider this undeserving of us.

So other than having loads of assignments to do, what else did I do other than eat, sleep, shit, do assigments....I talked a lot to the people around me, house mates young and old....spent some time to just listen to what they have to say, talk to them and know what their facing right now, after all it isn't much different from what I was facing last year...sounds like I turning into a 24x7 student mentor....damn....

Yesterday was a blast....too much food to eat.... went out with Judy and Tiff to sunny bank(the "other" asian community) was great fun, talking to these 2 fabulous girls(fabulous in their own way...that is) yah it was great to see familiar faces again. Tiff being so much like me, just the female version of me, and Judy the first OCFer I know in Australia. We talk a lot ...well, crap/rubbish... during lunch, just having fun for the day, riding in Judy's car...dammit am I like the only guy here who can't drive...$%&^%$@$, buying pizza for OCF, we had pizza by the lake, something different for a change.

OCF was great, did some studies which I really enjoyed, not just teaching, but doing them as well, most verses came from psalms, so I had to constantly refer back to 1 and 2 samuel to find out psalmist's state of mind while writing those psalms, discovering new thing, adding to my write outs(Yes, for all those who do knot know, I've been writing out biblical topics with focus on certain verses, no soft copy, their all hand written). I'm really starting to enjoy this, researching on theology stuff and find out things...scary.....hehehehe ;P

OCF

Ok, my first time in OCF as a CGL....wow, this sounds rather ermm....daunting

It was an amazing feeling to be able to actually be given the chance to extend a minister beyound your own like comfort, home or rather I place which I was not trained in. I was nervious, yes its true someone who has been a CGL for almost a year, can till be nervious when leading studies. However take it from this point of view, if someone goes into a lesson, feeling fully confident, not nervious at all, feel that he/she has did a very detailed study on the topic of that day...than my question here is this "Feeling fully confident of self, how much will be allow God to guide us then?"

This is great man first day on the job and I got shaken already, not by the lesson, but by what happened before the lesson. Matt 6:33, well, I'm sorry Mei, but I don't take the stand point of basic needs such as food, water and clothes. My stand point would be the "all" here would refer to everything that God has intended for us, form basic needs to things that will help our ministry and of course whatever God see fit to give us.
HOWEVER, looking into this verse, I discovered something even more interesting, lets throw out both views and start from zero. I was looking through commentries after commentries and surprisingly, most of them, gladly left out the part of "and all these things shall be added unto you." I felt very puzzled about this, and I was able to find writtings that support both stand points, of basic needs and everything, than this point strucked me, sometimes its not that we are unable to find the answer we're just looking at the wrong place.
Lets look at the whole verse "Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." Noticed this "BUT seek ye first" and the line ended with a ";". What my take on this would be, its is NOT a matter about what the "all" here means, that is not the important thing in this verse, and it sure isn't the guiding principle of this verse. I would say, don't even bother about what will God give us, don't care about it, God will give what God sees fits to give, let Him decide the giving, what is our part here, "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness" don't bother about what God will give or what is it that He will give, just seek Him, just know Him, just focus on Him. That's it....as simple as that focus on Him.

Of course there are much more and yes I would like to continue on Hebrews 12:1-3 for the benefit of some of my friends back in Singapore....

Ok Hebrews 12:1-3 lets just skip the verse...and get to the question HOW??? How do actually do what that verse says?
"let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us" - Hmm 2 things were mentioned in here, "every weight" and "the sin". Have anyone ever wondered? If it is sin, why mention it twice, so its obvious the first section "every weight" would not refer to sin, now lets not focus on the sin part, that part is easy to know and look into, lets focus on "every weight" if this is not refering to sin, than what is it refering to?
Life? the daily things we do? material things? BUT can it also refer to our ministry? Our ministry in church? can it? Lets zero in on this fact, well we do our ministry for God so our focus is God, so thus it can't be, but think again....You know the 35 parables told by Jesus, You know the 35 miracles done by Jesus, You know the 7 "I AM"s that address Jesus or You can even know that there are 77 generations from Adam to Jesus......but do you know Jesus?
Looks like it is possible after all...how many times have we been so or rather overly concerned about doctrine, about truth, about that "experiancial feeling" that we seem to forget the basis of it, knowing so much about God, that we do not know God....

I guess running the race does not always mean doing....its about being. Doing can be so easy to measure, but what about being? Is it even possible to measure being? So it just leads back to seeking God all this time. Why is it does so many things lead back here....Why Why Why? Why is it so important to seek God, to know God, rather than just doing??? John 17:3 And this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.

Now do you know why doing is important, BUT even more so being...

Weekends Happenings

Ok, this was by far one of the most interesting weekends that has heppened....well.....

Firstly back to OCF....We actually had this introduction video....and Guess What...!?!?!?!?! I saw LiWei and Jing Jing in it, yes its a combine OCF video, wished OCF Brisbane was big enough to have a video of its own though....
So yah I am officially an OCF CGL, sometimes I guess, you're like feeling how muched God has taught you over these years that, well the only way to reply is to teach others. Seriously Nothing beats the feeling of seeing someone grow in their own Christian walk, helping them making a difference in their lives, and thats even a greater feeling when you see them rise up to one day teach others.....(making disciples....)
Gathering at OCF was really fun, and yah to Jasmine and Debbie, if you're reading this, to tell you girls the truth, I didn't confirm if there really was an OCF meeting that day, in fact I didn't even know what the program for that day would be and not to mentioned I forgot the usual meeting time. I was like praying damn hard that there was something on, well walking by faith I guess. That again I was worried thou, so yah I guess God saved my ass again...

That was friday, now saturday.
Saturday was one hack of a day, visit to Chinatown, South Bank, Goodwill Bridge, Brisbane Central. We travelled to so many places in just one day. Chinatown was great I found my cooking ingredients and yes Chillie paste. Had lunch there too, and for the first time in my life we saw a life protest, so we just joined in....hahahahaha, I am seriously hoping they have a student riot for VSU(maybe I can burn down a VSU sign or something...with naplam of course)

The Protest we saw in Chinatown

South Bank, now for those back in Singapore, well, south bank has a manmade beach, so we just go there and look at the beach and ..."WOW!?!?....ok..now what?" yah thats basically it. We sat there for some ice cream though, so you guys can see my housemates, and yah we're called "the gang".This is one of the dumbest signs I've ever seen, do you think blind people can see this sign?

Bryan

Serina

Jasmine

Shaun and Debbie

Sondre and Debbie(again..girls like to take photo lah)

Highlight of the day, this damn group of australians came driving by in their car and shouted racsit remarks at us...yes I was pissed and disappointed with such human behaviour, but I was more disappointed with my reply. What they say was "You guys are stupid, Go home, fucking chinks...blah blah blah..." these guys didn't even have the balls to stay and listen to my reply, so what did I say "Your mother didn't really loved you in the first place!"....way to go Mr smarty pants....Some of you may be asking but why am I disappointed, its sounds really witty and its not vulgal as well, well here is the answer.

Luke 6:33-35(KJV) And if ye do good to them which do good to you, what thank have ye? for sinners also do even the same. And if ye lend to them of whom ye hope to receive, what thank have ye? for sinners also lend to sinners, to receive as much again. But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil.

Why the hell did I even reply in the first place, what was I thinking?

That pretty much wraps up Saturday, now for sunday...
For the goodness knows how many timeth in my life....why do I keep on getting mistaken as a Japanese or Korean, I can speak English perfectly fine. This time it happened in church, I was mistaken for a Japanese....oh man....

That was one hack of a weekend....Now its back to school...lets see what other magic can I conjour with my assignments