Sunday, May 20, 2007

Why 2 and half years?

Why did I have to wait? Why was I made to wait 2 years before I was able to teach and another 2 and the half years before I was filled with knowledge and another 1 more year before I was given my own ministry?

The answer is very simple....because God couldn't use me back then...

5 long years, wow this is amazing, I don't why, I just thought now since I'm on the verge to handing over my duties in OCF, I retraced the time where it all started. Foochow Methodist Church (Rex cinema) how long ago was that, I voiced out that I wanted to be a teacher because I felt there were too many things that God had done and I wanted to spread it. Back then it was only the head that was willing, I had no knowledge, no will power and I didn't have a true understanding of I wanted to teach. So, I went into Cell groups, of course feeling disappointed, the question was still "Why wasn't I allowed to teach?" I couldn't even sort out my own life back then, much less to help out in somebody else's. Come to think of it, it was a good thing God didn't allow me to teach. Plus the pride factor as well. What is it with all men? Why does God always have to humble every man before they can be used? (Original Sin lor)

This is just so amazing, to discover that each and every step of the way was planned by God. I think He knew I wanted to teach in ministry all along, and it took 5 years to prepare my heart, smash my pride, and add knowledge, not just knowledge that stays in the head, but heart knowledge.And it all happens in just the right time, I was asked to become a Co-leader, after I entered army, I was given knowledge just before I left for further studies and now after serving for 1 year I am given my own ministry; the timing is just prefect.

From here on, I think its no longer how much we wait, but the fact that everything is according to God plan and timing. So it doesn't matter how long we wait or even if it doesn't happen we just have to know, it happens for a reason and it is all in God's perfect plan.

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